March 2010
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“I want you, but I’m afraid I won’t know where to stop.”
– Elvis Costello/Fiona Apple.
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Don't leave me high.
I’ve dealt with a lot of disappointment in the last few months; people not turning out to be who I thought they were and supposedly nice people molding into your standard jerk. It all accounts to me putting my trust in people too easily. I’m easy to sweet-talk because I’m a nice person; because my intentions are always genuine. Honest. Naturally, I expect the same out of others....
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DON'T TELL ME I'M NOT SO GOOD ENOUGH!
Me: Fuck, my ass is so wet from spilling water all over Jeff's bed.
Beto: You should tweet that: "My ass is wet from being on Jeff's bed."
Me: *looks at Jeff and shakes head in protest.* Nah, that's not gonna happen. Ever.
Jeff: BECCA, DON'T TELL ME I'M NOT SO GOOD ENOUGH!
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A rare dose of actual wisdom.
To me, scars are beautiful.
They are a constant reminder that though you’ve been through shit, you lived through it. The little mark on your skin that bullshit leaves on you is a symbol of your strength. I guess all I’m trying to say is: carry your baggage with pride. Hold your head up with courage. Acknowledge that you’ve made your mistakes, you’ve hurt people, and people...
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day 6 - a song that reminds of you of somewhere.
“Just Like Heaven” - The Cure.
For some reason, this song has always reminded me of the beach. I remember being 11 and blasting this song on my headphones (…with my walkman. DON’T JUDGE ME!) on my way to San Diego, looking out towards the beach. Flash forward to being 14, angry and pissed that I was forced to go to Cambria with my, at the time, demonic parents (teenage...
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Tell me who I have to be to get some reciprocity.
I hate it when I act on impulse. I rarely do. I usually think things through over and over again before I act upon my thoughts. Even when I send a text, I re-read it for a quick minute before I send it to make sure I’m saying what I intended to say in a reasonable fashion.
However, I guess I’m allowed to have my stupid moments. Sometimes feelings take over and that’s normal. I...
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one of these again..
TEN things about yourself:
(1) I want to collaborate my keys with a rapper. (2) I saw Van Halen with David Lee Roth. (3) I think I could eat sushi every day and not get tired of it. Crunch rolls and spicy tuna, plz? (4) I got married at 18 and just a few months into being 19 I’m getting a divorce. Yay, life! (5) My Papo (grandpa) is my hero. (6) I’m a hot bath addict. (7) I’m...
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On the subject of dreaming.
Anyone who really knows me, knows that I have very vivid and intricate dreams. They’re always pretty intense and leave me feeling a certain way upon waking up. This morning was no exception. However, my latest dream left me feeling a little bit more off-kilter than usual.
There’s been a great change in me in the last month. Just check my old entries and compare them to the recent...
“A bird does not sing because it has an answer. It sings because it has a song.”
– Maya Angelou
Caring is creepy.
She was such a heartless bitch in this movie, but I think that from now on I’m going to live by her mantra and mentality. She ends up happy, right?
Dilemma.
I was playing the piano like 5 minutes ago and had a semi-epiphany.
Part of me still longs to be a music therapy major.
I feel the music in my bones. The melodies in my head just burn like a fire in my mind. I feel like I have a God-given talent and I should make use of it— a career in music would just be so natural. I love animals and I have enough drive to go through 8 years of school to...
day 5 - a song that reminds you of someone.
There’s genuinely so many songs I could use for this subject. I’ve been sitting here for 10 minutes trying to weed through different songs to find the perfect one, but I just can’t. I guess I’m going to go with:
“Cailin” by Unwritten Law.
This song was used by a certain person to tell me they loved me for the first time. It may be completely irrelevant...
Day 4 - A song that makes you sad
Technically it’s day 5, but, well, I didn’t have much time to update, so—
“Twilight” by Elliott Smith.
This song reminds me of a year and a half ago and being completely alone at 2 in the morning. I’m not going to go too into depth with this one because I’m not in the mood to write a sad or sappy post. Let’s just put it this way: I listened to this...
Baby drunks.
Moreno: Hey, can I have another drink? *slurring
Anthony: No man, just chill for a while.
Moreno: Wait. So can I have another drink?
Day 3 - A song that makes you happy.
I was so torn about this one. Not about picking the song per say, but selecting the song itself for this particular subject because I feel this song fits under SO much different criteria.
“Fade Into You” by Mazzy Star.
This song produces so many feelings for me. Sometimes it makes me happy, sometimes it makes me reminisce, and sometimes it makes me really, really fucking sad. But...
Jumbled thoughts.
Sometimes I miss having my own place. I love being home, being surrounded by family and unconditional love, but at times, I look back and miss the liberation of living on my own. Granted, I didn’t live completely alone the whole time I was in Florida, but I did for a few months. I wish I would have taken advantage of the fact that I had my own apartment; invited people over more often, had a...
day 2 - your least favorite song.
This one is really tough for me, being that I’m an avid music lover an there aren’t many genres I don’t appreciate or respect. Hmmm.
WAIT. This is easy—
That God awful “Tik Tok” by Ke$ha. Jesus. No explanation needed.
Dazed.
My mind is a whirlwind of flashing thoughts. Everything is moving so fast. Time in Florida seemed so s-l-o-w… so non-existent, almost. Every day was exactly the same; the last 2 months, at least. On the contrary, the last few weeks back home on have been such a beautiful, confusing blur.
I feel like a little chubby girl with “chongas”, sporting a Pocahontas shirt on a carousel...
day 1 - my favorite song.
Favorite song of ALL time? Easy.
“It’s All Over Now, Baby Blue” by Bob Dylan.
The lyrics:
“Strike another match, go start anew ‘Cause it’s all over now, baby blue”
bring me so much inspiration and hope during my darkest hours. It sounds sappy, but just hearing the song makes everything clear again for me. It’s about things coming to an end, good...
DOING THIS.
Day 01 - Your favorite song Day 02 - Your least favorite song Day 03 - A song that makes you happy Day 04 - A song that makes you sad Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to Day 09 - A song that you can dance to Day 10 - A song that makes you fall...
“Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams....”
– Lady Gaga.
ben-alexander:
the-amped:
LMFAO.
wtf hahah!
